160602-03 Paris for Kcon

as usual, this is a personal travel account, not an ordinary whatever that means fanaccount, so if you just wanna read about Kcon, there's gonna be irrelevant stuff.
but pics and cams are at the bottom, so feel free to scroll when you get bored.

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when Bangtan was first revealed for Kcon in Paris, I'll be honest, it felt like a bad dream, not a good one.

mainly cos we have not been good at saving for Korea this time. hubs is weak before motorcycles, and I am weak before rare Bangtan merch and new-might-soon-be-oop merch and concert merch and Bighit just have no fucking chill what. so. ever.
so the nice, comfortable, airy travel budget we had hoped for would become a significantly more tight one if we decide to go, and for the longest time I wrestled with whether or not that sacrifice would be worth it. cos as weak as I am before Bangtan, Korea is my main priority.

never forget

a friend asked me just a couple of weeks ago, what I thought I would do or how I thought my life would be if I suddenly didn't have hubs anymore.
I told her, as was true after just a few years and even moreso now after 16, that I would be utterly fucked.
I wouldn't think my life would be over. it's not surprising that life must end so of course there is a chance I will be alone at some point, and I have been through too much to get suicidal over that.

but I would be completely and utterly lost.