August 19th 2017

this post is dated back months cos I needed the time. the time to process, but also just the actual time to write this. I trust you'll forgive the incoherence considering the subject matter.


in one week, maybe even to the day, after almost two decades together, me and hubs are getting divorced. 


even now, saying or even writing it, still feels surreal. I mean, I feel it, when I stop and actually think about it, I feel it and it makes me cry instantly, but at the same time it's just. so. unbelievable. like incurable deceases or actual deaths or other things that are just as Final. (not that I'm comparing death and divorce, I am comparing the finality)

171218 삼가 고인의 명복을 빕니다 ㅠㅠ

yesterday, Jonghyun chose to end his own life, and now, 24 hours later, it still doesn't feel real. the tears in my eyes tell me it's real, but my head still can't wrap around it.